Where do i stand?

Maybe i think too much.
Sometimes i just wonder where do i stand.
And it's just the same,
i'll always be the last to be picked, but the first among the last to be picked.

Am i right?
I don't even know if i'm hated, or liked.
Or just non-existent, neutral, not needed until there's some use for me.
Would i be better off just being alone?

So many questions in my head.
The only time i really feel happy, truly happy is with the VS peeps.
At least these guys go town for movies once in awhile,
or come my house to play Xbox. Or at least i know there's no "i'm hiding something from you" feeling, or there's no "there's something i don't know that's going on but everyone else knows" kind of feeling. At least i feel included, even though we're in different schools now.

Others, i don't know, i really don't know anymore.
207, 209, MJchoir..
Maybe i'm thinking too much, but i'm just the type of person who thinks a lot, i take note of things happening around me as well and start questioning myself.

Maybe they have their reasons.
Maybe not. But i really don't know.

Im the i just fit anywhere but i don't belong anywhere.
So funny, this coming from me..

Sometimes i just want to cut ties with everyone.
Me, myself. No bonds, no expectations, nothing.

Maybe it'll be nice if someone cared for once.